Welcome Home!

To be back home. It is an act! It is a decision and a commitment.
After being on the move for almost 2 years now - with a few months still in Holland last year - it feels really good to have my own house to which call home and make my own.

The past months journeying in South America were great and have opened many many spaces in which ideas, plans and desires could grow. I have learned much about the fellow inhabitants of my continent and have been able to experience by my own the moves happening at this part of the world now. The whole experience of wandering into the unknown with Maarten has been amazing and super important to strengthen the foundations of our life together.

And now that we are back in Holland I feel we really had to leave to be able to be back and fully here. For the months we were away at several times I longed being back... Maybe for the first time in a long time, I longed being still and settled in one place. I longed being one place where people know they can find me, where I can connect with friends and partners whenever I wanted - not depending on crapy internet connection or buses schedules.

Being at home now also being me balance and some kind of quietness in the spirit. I feel more matured and grown - somewhat more adult and centered. Caring for the house, preparing the food and organizing our every day lives brings me calmness and wellbeing. In a way also brings balance to our man and woman dynamics, where I can take over the position which I also love of providing and caring, of mothering, of the feminine. A lot of times along our trips I found myself pending too much to the active, do-it, make-it-happen, directive side of the balance, and letting go of the soft, embracing, caring other side.

Now that we are back, established in our household, I tend to take back the part of me (and of the couple) that is providing and giving. Doing groceries and cooking is a pleasure, whereas while travelling it was a have-to, practical thing to do. And Maarten, on his turn, can take back the more masculine role, harmonizing so the equilibrium of our interactions.

Being home is an act. And I am loving it!